Today I decided

To not speak

Of how I feel

The deepest

Hardest seating

Thoughts

Bleeding through

Gushing

No matter how

Hard I

Tried to clog

These holes

They leaked

Out sadness

No one could bear

Crying should not

Be an option

Weakness was defeat

Frailty was my condemnation

Of this soul

I bore

Pitiful

The eventful show

Of burning body parts

Severed and

Defenselessly being blown

Into small, fine dark ashes

By a miserably angry

Wind

Eyes stared

As judgmental as ever

Indulging themselves

With the sight

Of fiery

Mixing of life and death

My scream of pain

Was a sweet

Melody harmonized

By a thousand symphonic

Evil laughter

Adding ache after ache

Melting flesh

And tendering bones to the fullest

I could stop it

Run away from it

Forget,

Start over

But I wouldn’t

It’s a much deserved suffering

I could not resist

Everyone did not

Want to take on

Anything

But I did

If it’s one last thing I’d do

Before dusk

Good bye was all I could say

To a world I struggled to look at

Differently

Couldn’t say I didn’t try

As I know I did

But things

Run deceitfully

And often times

In ways you wouldn’t

Expect to survive

Today as I decided

To not speak

I’d keep these words

In a secluded spot

No one would ever find a way

To break in

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